Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Dear Mother....

Dear Mother,

If only we could see you, talk to you..hear you....

After God, it is a mother who is everything to her child. Mother, it must have broken your heart to know that you are going to be away from your children forever! It must have left a scar which never fades in the lives of those who love you. It must have been a great sorrow for all whom you influenced with your love and affection.

Mother dear, times have gone by and father has left us to join you. We have joined your children and you both must be looking down on us now. The void that was created is always felt. We miss you dear mother. Your earthly remains may be buried and may be ignored and forgotten by others but, how can we ever forget you when you are always with us. You live in our thoughts and hearts. Your presence is felt in the blood and flesh of your children and still your grand children. We are glad that atleast we have that part of you in us though we miss everything else. The relationship we might have had with your siblings. We might have known about you more from them.

We miss you and we love you as we remember the day you were born (October 23).

Resembles your son???

Resembles your son?

Arun Paul, Anand Pradeep, Usha Anand & Shoba Arun.

Monday, February 04, 2013

Gossip, Lies, Hurt and You...

Wherefore hidest thou thy face, and forgettest our affliction and our oppression? Psalm 44:24

 How does one feel when being cornered by problems caused by vicious people and their lies? And if you are a person who trusts God, how do you react? How long can patience keep you up? Think...Think...Think...I realize this is a scenario of being tested!!!

Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him. James 1:12

Oh??!! The whole mystery lies in one word... LOVE!!!! Love God then love your neighbor as yourself. Is it a cake walk to love someone who intimidates and crushes you mentally? Is it easy to love someone who plays with your mind! Well! Not easy for me of course. But I need to have God's love in me to overcome my enemies. God loved me when I was a sinner.

It indeed feels awesome to be in the center of God's plan, feels awesome to ask God to use us for his glory, feels awesome to think God is using us as a vessel to bring honor to his name. But it is not so easy as I thought it would be. Loving and forgiving is the most difficult thing to do especially when your heart is already broken and hurt is constricting the breath in your lungs. When it looks bleak, think of Christ's death on the cross, all beaten and bleeding till water and blood came out...Am I that much hurt that there is only water and blood coming out of me? Definitely NO!!! Then what is stopping me? Oh!!! Just let go off my pride. We do mistakes and how it looks when you are proven guilty? Its the same to others. Just forgive them even before they realize it. 

Think of David and Saul! Saul seeking David's life and David running for it. 

Think of Israelites groaning under the Egyptian tyrants.

Think of Hagar crying for her dying son in the wilderness.

Has God closed his eyes? or is God not answering me? and the worst doubt ever...Does God hate me? WOW! Couple that with mood swings, what a perfect loop hole for the devil to enter and play with my mind!! 

Though that is what my mind is subjected to now, I do believe God wont leave me. It is trying my patience and sometimes I just become almost mad and hysterical with constant trouble before my eyes when I try to ignore and go past it, it somehow makes its way into my mind. And there is this constant argument between my  mind and heart. But do I trust in God or believe my thoughts and believe people? Oh!!!! Am wrong! Gravely wrong! I need to trust God! He created me, inscribed me on the palms of his hands, loves me as the apple of His eye and forgave me when I was happily ignorant of His love which forgave my sins before I could realize them.

How vile could vile person be? 

Oh??!!! Can I forgive someone who could think of nothing but to hate me? Can I forgive someone who concocts lies against me? Can I forgive someone who back-stabs me while pouring a bucket of honey over me? 

I should forgive them!!! 

Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. Romans 12:19

That is what Jesus did for me so why not I follow that? It is difficult but If I do then in the end, I'll own a crown of life which would make it all for the life that I live in this world :-) 

Father I do forgive them!

And all this assembly shall know that the LORD saveth not with sword and spear: for the battle is the LORD'S, and he will give you into our hands. 1 Samuel 17:47

So sit back, relax and be prepared to see the glory of God!